Peeling Another Layer!

Sometimes we have insights within ourselves that moves deep to our core and when we allow it we can truly grow and expand.

This morning I had a challenging time getting up and I can say since my initial arrival the first time that I felt tired. I skipped yoga this morning and made the walk to school a little later than usual. This was day 5 of the Thai Massage Foundation Intensive and boy am I feeling it. As I was preparing to go into class I realized how sore my legs are. For the previous days all that floor work and moving my body in ways that I have not experienced in quite sometime.

The previous four days we covered all the material for this section of my training so it was a day of practice and taking my examination. The instructors and students alike have been extremely helpful and I really enjoy my conversations with them. I have had some great talks with a wonderful spirit who is inspiring. It has been a great exchange of energy!

I was sharing with her how I really am getting how attached I've been and seeing that I am letting go. The example I shared was in regards of my shoes. In Thailand many places you go you take your shoes off before entering. Now I did get myself some sandals but after that first day of walking to school I got a sore on one of my toes so I've been wearing the Clark's that I got when I was in Amsterdam last year. I did pay good money for them. I had the thought of what if I leave these shoes out and someone takes them. It hit me like I ran into a brick wall.....so what? Does this define who I am as a person? Does what I have or the way I think about things define my experience. I suggest no. Being present in every moment and experience the richness of what is without attachment. In the attachments we become slaves to our interpretations. If we let go and experience what is we truly will know ourselves, our REAL SELF! Not the illusion or where our limiting thoughts take us.

Previously I had mentioned how I really wanted that A+ in my course. As I thought about it something just wasn't right and I was with that today and there was the breakthrough. I took the examination this afternoon and was being present to the session but there was a part of me that was caught up with that damn A+.....do you see what I mean? We have to be willing to let go. Well I did not get the A+. It had nothing to do with my evaluator for she is a very sweet and supportive person. She did give we some great feedback which was extremely valuable. My initial thoughts were not supportive of being present with what is and a part of me was not happy about it. Now why would I allow myself to be disturb by this? I am in a beautiful country meeting beautiful people and having the time of my life. Does an A+ define who I am? After a conversation I had today I saw where my attachment was coming from. The attachment to my educational experience during my troubled days after the lost of my mother and not doing well in school feeling inferior to the other children.

This day has been a major breakthrough for me. I am still feeling a shift as I write this and suspect that there will be a continual unfolding from this moment in my life!



After the class, even through I was exhausted I went for a Thai Massage. How appropriate. Most of our work was on my legs and I did not say a word!



I am thankful for all who have crossed my path and for those lives that I am able to touch in some way.



With TRUST,

Magnificent Michael (aka The Great White Bear)